Up and Down

I'm worried that I'm going to crash and burn. I seem to go through this cycle of exercising, feeling good about my self, wearing make up and keeping the house clean, and then crashing... and then the laziness and disappointment in myself start and last until I get so pissed off at myself for being lazy that I start up again. And Usually have to start again from scratch.

I've been running pretty consistently since August of last summer. Even through the winter, I ran. I'm honestly shocked that I've kept it going this long... and that's why I keep registering for races, so that I have to run in order to be prepared for the race. Otherwise, I'm sure I would have given up by now.

I'm eating better. I'm trying to eat less bread/pasta, I'm eating more fruit and veggies (current favorite is roasted broccoli), and I'm paying attention to my body in terms of my hypoglycemia; eating a high-ish protein snack BEFORE my arms and legs get shaky so that I don't end up eating spoonfuls of peanut butter in a panic to get my body back to normal. But eating well is kind of time (and money) consuming, and difficult with a family to feed as well. I'm afraid I'm going to get lazy one day, take the easy way out, and get stuck in that rut of chicken fingers and fries. (Little Fox would be SOOO happy!).

I really hope I stick with the yoga. My problem with "classes" is that I have trouble getting ready and getting out the door... I dread going until I'm actually there. I really hope I don't give in to that "dread" and stop going.

Anyway, I guess my point is that I've been feeling so good that I'm just hoping I can avoid the "crash" part that typically comes after the feel-good part. I love the up part of the cycle so much, and I HATE the down part... so, why do I let myself get to the low point?